Self - Destruction to Self - Care

When I was younger I was terrible at self - care and I have learned the hard way over the years that self-care is really essential to the well being and happiness of each person. A young, naive me would use self - destruction instead of self-care; I think I can go as far as to say that I was a master at self-destruction. I didn't realise how much of a problem this was until 2 years ago which is the dangerous part.

Choosing Self - Destruction Over Self - Care

Self-destruction for me in my early teens was not eating properly, my younger sister could eat and eat and never put on weight and I was so conscious about it due to remarks from my parents etc. So I would skip meals and starve myself which actually ended up making me feel more bloated than helping me lose weight. I would never sleep enough, I would lock myself in my room, not communicate with friends or family and the people I did communicate with, did not serve me at all.

The roots of why you choose to self - destruct can be anything, it's no one's right to judge whether it is a worthy reason or not, our battles and demons are specific to us, our lives and emotions.

Generally, I came from a loving family until my parents divorced when I was thirteen and I was the only person who could understand what was going on at the time and it mentally and emotionally drained me. There were 101 other factors in the situation but to keep it simple and brief it made me struggle to find my identity which led to such big insecurities for my entire teenage years.

This added with growing, going through puberty and having two extremely protective and tight-lipped older brothers I started having suicidal thoughts, leading to depression and anxiety. But hey, I am not saying any of this for you to feel sorry for me. I have no one to blame for my emotions but myself and I came through on the other end, I want to ensure that you all know you can relate to me and the topics I discuss on Discover Oneness all come from a very personal place.

The First Step To Self-Care And Self-Awareness

The first step is for you to be aware of how bad things may have gotten for you and that this must change, there is no weakness in this, it is commendable and positive. Being in denial about yourself and your problems is so dangerous, once you have identified what your problem is you can choose to change but if you are in denial about what is going on no improvement can be made.

So that is exactly what I did, I decided to face all the bad behaviour traits I had and chose to change them.

Steps Towards Self - Care

The first step I took towards self - care was meditation, I was very lucky that I had an amazing coach called Bobbie, who mentored me when it came to meditation, she introduced me to 528 Hz which changed my life and bought me here to my life's purpose. I started by listening to 528 Hz whenever I felt stressed and needed a pick me up. Later I practiced meditating firstly by setting a timer for two minutes and week by week when I felt I could focus 100% on the meditation I would add a minute. Almost a year later and I meditate for 30 minutes twice a day, more if I get the time!